einnylynnie

with love. my new blog. enjoy.

as of this very moment.
there's only one thing running through my mind.

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i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit. i need to shit.

i fucking need to shit.
but im stuck in e bus. fuck fuck fuck.
k thks bye.

YOU my dear EX friend is faker than the cheapest imitation LV or chanel around.

i am UTTERLY disgusted.

if ive any regrets in this lifetime. it would be knowing u, liking u and being your fuckin best friend whom you conveniently made use of.

fuckin loser ice tham. thats what u are.
stay in ur fucking freezer. and fuck off.

this was not how i remembered you to be.
i pray every minute and every second that you will get better.
pls.

it was you who..

but it doesnt matter anymore.
never will it ever again.

im good. i will be good.
i can be better than good.

all the best to you.

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to a better life.

shrugs..

it was never a regret i am supposed to live with.
never was, never will.
im your loss, your regret.
broken and exhausted.
im certain i can survive. been here done this.
i know i will for i will.

my mind n my heart are at war.

reason vs emotions/feelings.

is this a gd thing? no.

can it be overcome? yes.

how? feel e piercing pain thru the heart, let the mind piss out the thoughts in e form of tears and go to sleep.



alls wells ends well.

well, i hope its true.



nights.

for once and only once.
never again.

but no worries.
im still here as your friend.

we will all be whole one day, someday.

random.
had to post it as a reminder to meself.

i was walking towards e train station today, thinking of buying the old chang kee chicken wings. as i got closer, i saw a queue... a queue of 3 fat people. thats when i decided to forgo the wings and go straight to work.

know what i mean? dont? nvm. u are destined to be fat then. not physically then ur brains, it must be.

haaaaa.

today i realised that the 5 alarms i had set before are still working perfectly fine, ringing every damn day as i had set it to. i also realised that i only hear the first ocassionally and the last alarm everyday. i must be EXXXXXHAUSTED. then again maybe i just love my sleep? hurr. lets test it out tmr. woot!

waiting for e bus now! i will not be late for work. noooooo.

and in jade's words:

GOOD DAY!

on an emo side note, sometimes i wonder if u still do read my blog out of curiosity or cus u still care. it still hurts to know how it all ended and a new love for u started, all so quickly and too quickly. perhaps, it was meant t be from e start huh.

pppppps: the bus still isnt here. fuck.

ktksbye.

"I spend 23 hours a day wondering whether we’re wrong for each other, wondering whether we’ve got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize I’ve been thinking about her for 23 hours and I come back to there’s something about her, I can’t stay away from. Something about her, that makes me want to love her."

*copied from b's blog. i must say she does have the nicest shit t read at times.*

wouldnt it be simpler if we had no emotions at all?
no angry, no happiness, no love, no hate, no nothing.
would it be better cus we wont have to worry about stupid small little shit.

wouldnt it be easier if the real world didnt revolve around money. if we didnt have to work our asses off just for a few measely bucks?

wouldnt it be best if we just didnt exist. then we wont be takin in shit just to survive.

blah.

for so long ive not mentioned christs name unless it for some crappy statement that bears no good meaning.
im a sinner. we all are. so?

anyway, a friend just reminded me of christ today.
i commented that i needed more strength and willpower. she told me just one thing, Matthew 7:7 Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

wow. guess what it reminded me of?

john3:16. the worlds most well known bible verse. and i still remember it.

for god so loved the world, he gave his one and only begotten son. that whoever believes in him, shall not perish but have eternal life.

randomness. but its a wonder i still know.
maybe god really is around.

show me the way then, will u old man from above. please.

the world's most retarded fight started cus of 2 "WTF?!", im sure u'll say, things.

a camera lighter (my favourite of cus!)
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yes. a comma.

the wonders of the english language. punctuations change the way a sentence should be read totally. warning to all. if u have a sour puss overly sensitive defensive probably sister trapped in a brothers body for a sibling, insert ur commas whereever necessary.

maybe i'll paste up the sms war some day. if only i had the telephone conversation. u should hear the bitch scream yo!

HAA.

oh. better make this private. ltr i get sued or something. then again maybe not.

you talk about love like you know it all. well love knows you too and it definitely despises you.

my memory of u is like a track on my playlist on shuffle mode. its comes back on every once in a while.

yes. despite the countless times ive ranted abt my eight characters clashing with cab drivers..
i still take cabs.
but ive fucking made up my mind now.
no more cab even if im late or whatever fuck.
know why?
cus if u stay at pasir ris and ure late for work.
cabbing is a motherfucking way more expensive alternative and wanna know what else? YOU END UP BEING LATER.

knn. im on a rampage. about to kill the world.
i mean it. fuck!

smth i owe my blog, not like anyone reads really.abt that shitass garang gay cab driver.yes. he's gay. yes. he's a divorcee.he got married as a smokescreen for his genuine sexual preference. yadayada. aiya so long overdue i lost all zest wanting t write abt him. kadoink.

anyway lifes good but broke. ike mayjah broke ass broke! ive sorta lost a friend again but shit happens right. like duh it does! i shat so much e past week i never wanted to complain abt constipation ever again! hurrrr.

any anyway, im otw out t eet e cb and kb and the audrey. HAHA. drinknpukefestation bitches.

i deserve to die for living a life of debauchery.

ps: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! playing tomorrow? lets PLAY! i playing w pammie and co yet again. it's always sexsexsex.

ure as high and above as a fat pig flying in the sky. fuckin deluded dumbass. stay away. now leave.